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samqzy
Oct. 26th, 2007
09:25 pm
okiee dokiee, i have create a new blog at last, so i can post pretty bitchy pics, http://bitchwords.blogspot.com/.
Oct. 23rd, 2007
05:08 pm
i feel sometimes ppl take for granted, but tt's for me to be blamed. bcos u fear to voice, things jus happen in a way u dislike. n bcos u fear to voice, things r kept inside u.bcos u fear to voice, u reached a pt to change. bcos u fear to voice, u start to think things again n again. yup, bcos u fear. y ppl aint sensitive, n i am. ppl can say all the things they wanna, go on yagging, but have they ever tot abt themselves??? u wonder y humans r like tt. their behavious, action n moves. i can kp a tolerance to certain issues in my life. but everyone has a limit.the point where u r not able to take things in. bcos u wanna acoomodate, ppl tk things soft. they go on n go on. they might not mean it, but it irritates. tt pisses. sometimes i jus wanna yell to the ppl to jus shut the fuck up. sometimes i wannatell them to fuck off. but when i think bout the reactions they might have, i get pulled back. this is a fuck up situation. screw it! yes i am piss w certain things, n i am not denying, n i wun say a shit. jus go on bullshitting. be it your way,n be it my way. i wun care less a bit.
Oct. 17th, 2007
04:11 pm
school started, seems ok, seen my classmates, all fine. we'll wait for next week, where proper lessons will realli start.then i think i'll b shag. i seriously hate 74 bus at night.ytd got back so late cos me kit kit n sean gotta miss 3 74 buses cos its overpacked w ppl. man, dunnoe wad SBS bus mgt doing. arrghh..
u noe when eveythig seems fine, then u turn n look back, tots of frenship pull u back.sometimes bestie jus hav to part n they can't stay pair up as b4.its part n parcel of life. the times we tok on the fone, times we stick tgt like glue, time we tok, time we cry, times we did stupid stuff, all these can onli be put behind n left as memories. pretty soon, u go n pursue studies overseas. well, its hard to part. nth much to say as well. i can onli say take care n good luck. happi for ur well being.
being gullible is bad. GULLIBLE is one word i hate, one word i wun wanna be. its stupid!! hate tt stupid word. u noe y secrets r meant to b secrets cos they aint meant to b leaked out. cos once leaked, regrets r smeared on their face. tt's secret to me. today didn;t seem to b a good day for me, the onli reason u can gv ppl w tt look, its jus "tired".its always like this. u noe there'll b days ppl feel down, heart jus sink down. but there's not particular reason to explain to it.
i feel lousy ytd. my bloody body jus cock up during ann's lesson. i dunnoe y i feel so tensed up ytd. my mind is like f***ed up.gotta realli drop all tt free styling shit. sam u shd jus go eat shit n die sometimes(ok i am kidding bout tt).jus piss w myslef. when u can';t do sth properly, u hav onli urslef to blame n no one else.
Oct. 7th, 2007
01:09 am
its weird but sometimes we ppl have to think things in a different way. have u ever tot of being unlucky, unfortunate, feeling like a suay person at times? someone told me this, if u have some savings in your bank, u r counted as one of the richest in the world. if you r relying on proper food for survival, u r counted one of those hu survive upon luxurious meals. well, think bout it, its true. its realli true. so we shd all feel LUCKY N FORTUNATE!!:))
i was reading other ppl's blogs, reading n reading, entries by entries. entires written by ppl i dun even noe. jus click n see. KPOH tt's the word, or mayb BOREDOM sounds like the sppropriate word to describe. its pretty interesting knowing the differnet tots ppl r having.the little things tt affects them, runnin bout their lives. its realli interesting. some r sad over their breakups, some feels shit being a third party, some feel messed up being in love, some feels tired of living cos they think life hav no purpose, some feels joy cos they realise wad they live for, some look towards everyday cos they love every min of their life. they do things they love.
well, tt's life. :)
now n then my mind is all bout working hard to improve myself. jus to prove myself i'm not so useless. i got a dream to achieve. i know my headstart. i jus got to work on it. flexibility, isolation, stamina, alot n alot to work on. n i slap my mouth today after eating the whole packet of potato chips. i was like "didn't u tell urself ytd tt u r going to be healthy?!!, n wad's w u w tt potato chips, n fried you tiao ?!!!!!huh?!! samantha quek wth is ur mouth doing?!!!not listening?!! not being obedient?!! SLAP SLAP SLAP!!!" ok slap enuff, n the same cycle goes on, i tell myself tmr onwards gonna b healthy, but we see how it goes tmr la. i told myself 3 days ago, n it nv seems to happen. hahahaahah.
Sep. 29th, 2007
09:42 pm - the happenings
sry there's no fotos. blame this livehjournal dunnoe y cannot post fotos. prob it hates me.:(
yup confusion seems to past my mind lately. well wad can i say, women think too much. far too much. the more i think, the more i step back n tell myself, "nah i'm not going to let tt happen. i observe my surrounding. n look at ppl, see their behaviour towards others. some r sweet, some r jus bad.
i turn n look
i saw them laughing, smiling at each other
the feeling of sweetness brings about the word happiness
then i turn back
i saw them silence
he pretended not to see her in the eyes
she was toking
he ignored
then i walked up
saw her alone
she was once w him
n now she fell for anothe one
she loves him
but she likes the other him too
next to her, was her
she knew the bad treatment she received
she ignored it
she forgive in the name of love
they all were down, onli the first is happy
but sooner, the first will b back to square one again
as for me, i prefer the way it is now
all happy:))))
Sep. 16th, 2007
12:18 am
man!! we had ladies night today!! BURP!! i just had steamboat!! man!! it was good!! but i ate the least!! cos too much gas in my stomach!! n they all forced me to walk ard, ask me take watermelon, so i can burp!! hahahah!! we had 2 rounds!! we had so much food la!! its always fun to hang out w gals, cos u noe, we dun hav to pretend to b gentle n staff, we jus whack the whole table!!
before this we went cafe del mar for some roxy parfum event!! well many hot babes!! AND many hot hunks!! all the hotties r there!! i drank some alcohol staff, n they tot i was drunk, eh i am not ok!! n wei ni took a video of me pretending to be drunk!! haha i wasn't drunk ok!! i wasn'!! i jus got abit high n kp on luffing!!but!!! i am not drunk!!! hahahah.i took a foto w tt deal or no deal gal,u noe tt live the dream host, i think her name is andrea sth, can't rmb, but well she is tall!! haha!!u guys must b envying me!! woohoo!!!
well, when u r realli down, realli deep down shit down, jus go drink, then go eat spicy steamboat, i tell u, u confirm steam until ur sadness jus gone!! damn shiok i tell u!! hahahaha
while having our steamboat, happily luffing, this little boy came n brought us to silent. he was selling some cuttlefish staff, begging for money. my heartache, we all did. weini was like, if i noe the mother of this child, she confirm kana hong kan by me. i was owowowow!!relax... but seriously, tt boy is too young to do such thing. u noe at such young age begging for money is not wad i would want my child to do. its madness. our mood chnged. we were like man!! tt boy is poor thing. awwwwwwwwwww....:( well, bless this boy, bless him safety n good health then.
well, today someone told me this, "if u r naive, remain one, good things will come".well i am figuring it out.:)
another ladies night!! boys aside!! i want desert session!!!chatting session!! all at one!!tsk tsk. ok i am not drunk i say this again!!
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bouncySep. 14th, 2007
10:16 pm
its been loooooooooooooooong since i blog. alright let me update some staff
well on er.. tuesday i went to sing karaoke w 3 dudes. ahhaha! its at lucky chinatown, well the deco at chinatown is nice!! many big big lanterns!! and i think one of these days i am going down again to eat the food there. yup, since mr huggin says almost all the food there is good. well gotta try it out. n yes tt means i got to start to work out yeah.dreadful!! hols is making me lazy!!
n wed, went to watch movie w ernie, we watched no reservation. i tell u after watching tt, i kp craving for spaghetti, which is a funny thing. hahahha!! the show, i gv 3.5 stars!! hahha. then we went to eat at coffee club!! man the one at holland village is nice!! the ambience is wow!! so nice!!!!! yup, the mud pie was dope!!!!!!!!!!! simply!!! awesome!! the oreo was like dope shit!!woots!! worth the money!! went pool then drink teh n eat mutabak then stay over then back to slp!!
n thurs i was simply slping most of the time!! hahah!!
n today!! i woke up early for once to check my results!! i passed man!! but i gotta buck up next semester. but i'm happy i pass!! we all pass!!! n i realli realli hope we all get into the same class!!then i slp again!! then i went to celebrate mummy's birthday!!! wow!! the dinner was good!! i had sharksfin n crab!!! its was like wah!!! damn goood!!!!!!!n yes, my bum bum will get bigger. i went home spent awhile do work out. yea, jus to make sure my bum bum dun get big!! hate it la!! y tt bloody bum bum nv go away!! bum bum r gals nightmare!! but well!! jus wear baggy shirts to cover tt bumbum then!!
hahahah!!:)
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calmSep. 11th, 2007
04:18 pm
tadah!! these r some of my retard fotos!! cool huh!! hahaha!!
i feel reluctant to blog. cos whenever i scroll down my blog, i see missing fotos!! wah lao!! hahah!! damn livejournal! hahah!!
i realli dunnoe wad i wanna blog abt. i feel a little sian.i hav a mix of feelings. yeah. so i am confuse. i am blur at the moment. u noe like u dunnoe whether wad u r doing is right. n u think wad if u do this, will it affect sth in future. will things remain the same. yeah
anw, sometimes i think tt ppl hu realli hav an attitude shd realli do sth bout it. i am not going to gv in to those shit. come on ladies, dun blame it on ur menses or wadeva. u hav an attitude, go n deal it. cut tt bull!! u can vent ur shit, doesn't mean i can't. jus dun test the water. u can go all ard n say the word fuck, i can jus do the same. b rationale in the things u do. w tt attitude, it burns asses. n when ur asses get burn, well, ppl scream hell. so be it ur way, or my way. things gotta be worked out on u somehow. ok sam jus shut up. i will shut up for now.
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blahSep. 9th, 2007
12:17 am
CONGRATULATION NRA~~!!! I AM SO HAPPI!! WOOHOO!!CONGRATS!! WAY TO GO PPL!! DOPE DOPE DOPE!!!
i am so tired now!! hahah~~ i am tired. well wad can i blog abt, my mood for blogging seems to deteoriate.. hahah.. ok wad can i say, o yea i burn 3 fingers w the hot glue while wrapping prezzie, but my fingers r back to live again. n today went to meet up w tt kukuass, n yes no surprise for 40 mins, i think my life is abt waiting for ppl. jialat!! n i tried sth kuku today, i slot a cigarette in my mouth!! erm ppl relaz huh, i nv light it. but i feel pretty cool w tt long white shit in my mouth. mayb i shd make my own white shit, jus tearing n rolling papers, n i shall name it sambalourne. hur hur~~ later i met up w my peeps!! then we saw the performance!! wah tt robot man, got my goosebump standing. i tell u, tt man freaks me out. his body machiam like fake wan!! hahaha!! n tt small so-called jolin tsai gal, cannot stop shaking here n there, no music also can shake!! wa, i tell i was irrtated man!! lucky she's a kid!! goodness, we made so much noise!! hahaha!! she can shake asses for a living!! but man!! she so youngi think ard 5, n she wears so revealing!! goodness, i will nv l;et my daughter(if i have one in future) to wear n shake like tt on stage!! shake my head. n seriously, tt bikina looks too big on her small body. hahah!! alright, then nra performed well!! very well!! happi for them!!effort is all worth while!!i almost went deaf w jia jia shouting n screamin like mad right behind me!! hahaha!! well, tt's all!!
(*plspls....i dun want bad to strike. i prefer all good n normal.~)
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sleepySep. 6th, 2007
08:28 pm
i am very heart broken now!! i am very very heart broken now!! i feel so guilty!! OMG!! i spent $35 today!! OMG n i shdn't be spending money!! omg!!! i spent on potpourri, one cute little drawer,and i bought 2 CDs. jialat man!! omg!! i am so dead la!! i cannot spent!! heartache!! ouch!!
but well, i dun regret buying the CDs, one is amy winehouse, the other is john legend!! i onli heartache bout the fact i spend $35!!
john legend is the SEX babeh!!
and
amy winehouse is the BOMB ppl!!
so i just bought a SEXBOMB!! hahaha!!
i watch love anthology jus now!! omg!! i cried!! its been long tt i've watch a show n cry!! tsk tsk!! its a good storyline. meaningful. when a promise is made, kp it..i learn tt.hee
n ytd night, i jus invent a new vulgarity, KNNN=ka ni neh neh!! hahahha!!
cool right!! it was like out of anger. after sayin tt, i feel damn hilarious!!hahhaha!! okiee. ppl, KANINEHNEH is now the new word!! hahhaa!! NO MORE KANINAH!! my god, i can't believe i said KNN in public. but well, ppl take note!! hahahahahah!!!
i feel freaking acomplished n staisfied clearing my room for 4 hrs. n i'm still not done clearing, but the whole room looks so clean n cosy now babeh!! ahhh~~~~ooo lala~~~
tired~~~
Sep. 5th, 2007
01:47 pm
tsk tsk i love this foto alot!!!i look so stylo milo man!!lml!!
okiee i tell one joke which until today i am still luffing!! ytd i fell down!!hahah!! i dunnoe wassup w me, kp falling down. but i fell down, n no one helped me up!! cos i ffell w grace!! hahah!! shufang tot i was jus kneeling down to tie my shoe lace until i make noise then she realise i fell down!! ouch!! so damn funny la!! we 2 luff like siao!! hahah!!! ouch ouch!! now one more extra blue black!!hahah!! so damn funny!! giggles!! tsk tsk!!! okiee dokiee!! anw this sat is the suntec finals!! so yeah i wish all 5 NRA grps all the best!! best of luck!! work hard all the way!! hard work pays off!! u dun hav to win in order to be great!! greatness is found within!!winks;)
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chipperSep. 4th, 2007
02:16 pm
sometimes its always good to tolerate,yeah. but understandable tt tolerance reaches a limit. well some ppl has to chng for the beta. reflection is essential. ppl shd jus reflect at least once in awhile. we tend to lose ourselves sometimes n not realising it. the things we had said or had done,might hav hurt someone so deeply or hav cause inflammation or unhappiness, we might not know. yeah, if u get wad i mean, jus reflect yea. peace!! tsk tsk!!
PEACE PPL!!
well, ytd i think cos i couldn't slp, think until brain tired then doze off. hahah. well, i am still giggling over some staff, hahaha!! well, time will bring reality. but seriously, time tells everything. leave it to time. time tells.cos i am not assured of some things yet, n i am not intending to do anything to assure tt.yup, i am happy though.:) smile ppl!!!
(*nra jus brought me to another whole new person, thks thks, love yea peeps!!)
Sep. 3rd, 2007
11:43 pm
today at first i was like piss off man!! those ps kia!! so last minute!! 5 ps kia!! so sickening!! I HATE PLANNING N PPL NOT COMING SO I WILL NOT PLAN ANYMORE!!! i must salute von for being such a good organizer. but well this kind of thing also must depend on the ppl. but come on la, dun last minute la, must think of the person organizing right, wa lao, piss off man! HMMPH!!! COLD WAR NOW!! tsk tsk
but well, i enjoyed the movie!! yeah hairspray is dope shit!! damn funny!! WOOTS!! 5 STARS!! lucky got sean n jerald come man!! DOPE DOPE!!! then gene came, went to sing song!! at last!! at last man!! at last!! then sing sing then go makan then zoom back!!! i am broke now!! n i bought some artie fartie staff, going to do tt tonight!! tsk tsk!! excited!!!
(*u ppl r sooooooooooooo dead!!!)
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angrySep. 2nd, 2007
11:59 pm
happy birthday pretty!! hope ur boobs remain bustier each yr, it seems deflated this yr!! hahha!! tsk tsk kidding!! yup!! tt's all!!
and today long day.still like wondering whether the path i'm on is the right one. haiya!! dun think!! jus chiong la!! i must advance myself, but i cannot be lazy. must tell myself tt. yup!! dance prac all the way!! isolation n flexibility!! must stop my bloody freestyling. n just focus on fundamentals!! yeah babeh!!
chipperSep. 1st, 2007
04:28 pm
i have a weird way to deal w my mood. i went to delete some of my entries,so kuku of me, but i will put up the fotos back again one day. tsk tsk. ytd went eski bar. drink n eat ice cream cake!! happy bday gal!! hahah dennis face so red la!! redder than mine!! u dope man!!we took so much space in eski bar, the place is pretty small. yeah, so it was cramp.
then we went esplanade to break dance!! thk yew yew man!!but sorry huh, cannot kcik my leg tt high!! must also thk von, peggy , ivan n aloy to get started up n guide me w tt baby freeze. i succeeded within 4 hrs to get my baby freeze.n i end up hurting my elbows, n my right hand is numb, no feeling.hahaha. but i feel accomplished man!!
see me man!!
my next goal!!handstand n 7 up!! way to go!! i can do it!! woohoo
(*sorry~)
Aug. 31st, 2007
04:48 pm
damia is a boy who wants to end evrything. he is being subjected to that clay statue. unknowingly belong to nowhere. he is tired. very tired. he tot he could move on strongly. but he chose the path of a temporary closure.yes,jus a temporary one.
Aug. 18th, 2007
03:51 pm
i hereby wish my big bao bei, HAPPY SWEET BIRTHDAY PEGGY!!!! woohoo!! u r going to be a year older. anyway, peggy jus wanna tell u, tt u r a special gal!! nv shy to voice out opinions, alaways cheerful!!always so pretty!! u r one lucky gal!!! u will have another 7 years with ur bf!! n of cos another 7 years with SHUFANG!!(hahah, i read ur testimonials!!) yes!!! so u have 2 bfs now!! hahah!!! but it wun be 7 yrs years, it will be a lifetime!!, u will also have a lifetime w us gals as well as w ur beloved bf!!!! tsk tsk!!! take care, dance dance dance, eat , eat ,eat n sing sing sing!! i love yeah gal!!! n this song above is for u!! tt's by queen, erm some realli old rock band, the title of the song is "friends will be friends"!! listen to the lyrics!! love yeah!!
frens will be frens right til the end!!!
n also, i gotta wish my seniors good luck for ur auditions at suntec, wun b there supporting, sry man.. i will support the next one!! promise!! good luck!!!!!anyway, 8 steps u all did very well!! woots!!
cheerfulAug. 17th, 2007
02:31 pm - dead silence................:(
sam is dead, same can't study!!sam is unwell!! sam is sick!! sam go n die la!!! :( dead....................silence.........
sam give up!!
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soreAug. 16th, 2007
03:32 pm
omg!!can i not study!!! can i not study at all?!!arrghgh!! can i go back to lala land!! man, i've been drinking coffeee like 2 times a dday everyday. man!! ok!!no sam is going to study!! i dun wanna be debardded from nra!! so i gotta pass!! yes pass this shit!! tt's my mission!! i will chiong my ass off!! yup ytd while slping was thinking of some staff, funnily, i teared. yup. tt's funny but well, its happy tears so yeah!!
ok sammie goota run out of the hse. tata!!
when i tot life was going down
i brought myself up again
telling myself tml will be a beta day
n light shone upon me
the bits picked up
n slowly they r forming into smiles
although i neva express
that doesn't mean i didn't care
"I love u"
seems difficult to be said
from me to u
thks for the upbringing
my appreciation doesn't have to be seen
i'm grateful for my presence
life doesn't have to be a luxury
in order to be called fortunate
sorry for my misbehave
sorry for my bad
reasons are always kept
n not be said
even til now
for 18 years
i've nv dare to tell
cos deep inside
worry is not the word i want u to feel
probably because u 2 r my closest
the sweetest words seems hard to say
there's one thing for sure
i want u to know
i've nv blame
i've nv grudge
i'm a happy gal now
still growing n learning bout my surroundings
take care...
n hereby, i love u...
goodAug. 15th, 2007
07:28 pm - call me wicked!
this afternoon when i woke up, i headed to the kitchen, n man i got freaked out!!! there was a fat dead lizard on the floor.n there were ants all over it!! n man!! i was thinking,"shd i clean it up or no?how am i going to clear it? o yuck yuck yuck!!!how how how?" then i was like jus leave it there, mum will clear it when she gets home.hee!! although i feel bad , i still can't help giggling.cos i kp imagining the reaction mum will have when she sees the dead lizard in the kitchen. ahhaha!! she will be screaming her ass off!! hhahaha!! ok i'm mean!! but well, i cannot get my hands to touch tt lizard. i'm not scared of lizard but its too yucky!! ok i'm a typical gal.its so funny la. butsad to say, when i came home, dad cleared that lizard, so no show to see.tsk tsk!!
well today i went mac to study. n yup. i went towards the cashier counter to order a cup of latte n a mcchicken, this old lady(prob age 60 plus?) she served me well, she spoke well, "not bad" english. she was teaching this indian gal(prob 16 yrs old?) how to manage the cash machine. i am very impressed. i mean well, mac employs folks!! this is sth we shd be realli proud of.hu say old ppl r useless, they r simply not.they have the same capability as us!!but prob abit slower...hee.. we shd nv stereotype the elderly.we should all be impartial!! yes impartial!!
ok i shall watch laze ard for 2 hrs, n shove shit into my brain again.
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